牵手到分手的过程，像是一场病变

牵手到分手的过程，像是一场病变

It sounds sad, like a monologue of someone lingering in the room alone where there were two of them, talking to each other cheerfully in the language known to no one else but themselves.

It feels sick when someone leaves you when you are still in love with her. You had been strong when you are alone, but she becomes the Achilles' heel of you when she comes along. Only the fading away of true love may make you feel in weak.

病变

Growing  gray

鞠文娴

有天我睡醒看到我的身边没有你

You are out of my sight when I wake up someday

在我的右边是你曾经喜欢的玩具

Right by my side is the Teddy bear you like the best

可当我站起身来在房间里寻找你

Lingering around the room I am in search of you everywhere

留下的只有带着你味道的一封信

I find nothing but the letter smelling like you in vain

就在昨天还一起看我们的照片

We were still watching photos of our past yesterday

可现在让我感觉像烂剧里的主演

But right now it feels like that I am the role of an awful play

为什么这种事情会发生在我身边

Why on earth this should find its way to me

是不是老天没能看到对你的疯癫

Heaven doesn't see my fever for you, or does it

还想着 创造你的宇宙

Still think of

Creating the universe for you

但现在 已经被我清空

But now I

Put an end to things about you

你让我 整个人都冰冻

You've made me

Freeze from top to toe

还怎么 再次为你心动

How could I

Feel the heartbeat like years ago

违抗你不是你的意愿

Going against me is never your wish

离开我 开始新的起点

Leave me behind

You are after a brand new page

可能我 还会对你贪恋

Maybe I would cling to you still

谁让你 曾经让我疯癫

You are the one once had me all over you

疯癫 那也是过去的画面

All over you

That's the scene of the age

看往后的几天 我猜你也不会出现

Days in and days out

I have nowhere to see you again

我回想这几年 就像是要命的病变

Look back on the old days

Everything we have is gowning gray

你可能听不见 来自他对你的挂念

Maybe you fail to hear

The yearning for you from him

可能有点累

Maybe you're tried of it

觉得对不对

Right or not

这是第几次在为你宿醉

How many times I go drunk for you

I forget it

没了我肩膀

With me no more

你在谁身旁买的礼物变成了灰

Who are you next to

I flick away the dust on your gift

曾经我多想

How many times I think of

把你变漂亮

Making you more pretty

看着别人羡慕你的模样

And see how the way others admire you

没关系有小熊陪着你看月亮

Never mind

I will have you watch the moon with Teddy

我已经看到跟你断篇的过程

I have seen the way 

I lose the link with you

但我假装看不见

But I pretend that I have not

是不是要我变得像个厉鬼

Should I become a ghost fierce

才能进入你的世界

Just to enter your world mild

为什么不说再见

Why don't you say goodbye

我猜你应该是不小心的忘记

I guess you forget with a careless mind

都无所谓也有点累

Never mind

I'm just tired

也可以开始新的记忆

Maybe I could start again on a new line

我不能够停止啊

I could not cease to be

这些年我对你的疯癫

Away from the craziness

还会戴上那条围巾吗

Will you be with the scarf again

在每一个寒风刺骨的冬天

In every winter when the wind went biting

还有每次送你在回家的路上

Every time you were on your way home

I was following

不经意间触碰到你的手

I touched your hand without minding

你穿裙子眨眼睛 望着我

In white dress, with eyes blinking

You stared at me

那是让我心动的瞬间

I could felt my wild heartbeat

那条十字路口

Right on that crossroad clean

始终有你身上的气味

Scent of you lingers around free

车水马龙过后的路灯下的身影

Figure under the lamp on the lonely street

又会是谁

Who is it

但是我真的喜欢你

But I love you I do

但是每次欲言又闭嘴

Back into silence

When I'm close to the truth

那时荒唐的男孩

The boy once insane

又浑浊了几岁

How much more he got stained