A couple weeks ago I was at a bar in downtown.The music was way too loud, l couldn't move, let alone think straight.I don't know how to describe the empty feelings ,I was around a supposedly 'fun' environment.Youth,music,drinks,dancing,friends...but I just got something void.I was lost in a sea of socio-contractul behavior,talking to this person,ordering this drink, laughing at this joke, and dancing to this song...
My thoughts became clouded by the presence of others.Why am I here? How will I relate to them? What's meaning of these such crappy things? A ton of people from all kinds of life, all ages, everybody is out to relax,and have some fun maybe to forget something.They wanna kick up their heels,meet new people and mingle, dance or to find ONS. I really don't like it. My reason for going to bar is just to hang out and socialize with friends in a congenial environment. Through the noise,I naturally felt lonely .It's true that feeling lonely is not directly related to physically being alone, there's no amount of distraction could eliminate my discomfort. I hope it's an opportunity to get to know myself.
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